Scream and Shout!!!!

Get up.Enjoy the beats.Love.ZaRA.

Kisah Februari 13

Nobody is perfect. Hanya diri kita tahu bila seseorang tu  perfect bila kite kenal dia lebih mendalam. ceh.... Tapi when you get to know that person deeper, the perfectness will shed away one by one gradually. Nowdays, aku busy sikit dengan wedding preration.What? Semangat nak kahwin ke uols. Bila Ash bagi support memang la aku bersemangat. We complete each other. That's the thing kena belajar slowly sebab bukan nak hidup kejap je ngan dia (kalau diizinkan Allah swt). Insyallah. 

Sekarang ni memang memerlukan wedding planner aka bride's maid n she's everything, Miss Affnie. I was thinking nak spend time dengan dia to plan my wedding and also our girls talk. Miss Anis and Ina sila join sekali ok. Aku asyik jer 24/7 surfing the net. Mencari dan mencari. Actually idea yang penting. Huh really need orang memberi comment yang membina dan menolong sepanjang pencarian ini. Insyallah aku akan ke seberang sekali lagi tapi this time with my sisters. Hehe dapat la balik pergi travelling macam dulu lagi cume kali ni Insyallah ada new members on board iaitu....Ash. Sapa lagikan bikkkk.

Tak nafikan dugaan bertunang tu. Banyak upside down dan yang penting salah sorang tu kene tone down la so xde la gaduh benda kecik je jadi besau. Yang best last weekend miss affnie what's app aku dan kebetulan dia ada experience satu situasi tu. hehehe dear for your info, i delete that thing okay. hahahaha kejam. Kalau nak berbicara pasal lelaki, memang takkan pernah habis.

Kerja still kerja walaupun aku boring dengan benda ni. Nak pergi mendalami minat ada huruf 'M' di situ. Apa-apa pun aku yang kene ubah diri sendiri dulu. Okay sambung balik kerja yang melimpah ni. hehehe.Love.ZaRA.

Keep smiling even u feeling down

i was touch when I read this

"Salam N, I tau ada yang tak kena ni. A ada cakap atau buat yang N rasa kecil hati? Kalau ada yang tak kena, bawalah berbincang. Kalau nak call I pun tak apa. N jangan risau U dan I akan pastikan yang A akan jaga N dengan baik."

Speechless. But I will be patient. Love. ZaRA.

2013 please love me

Hi..Happy new year. It's a great start for this year. Biasa la benda2 yang kurang menyenangkan tapi aku positifkan diri. Lazy sunday tapi subuh lagi da bangun. Kemas bilik rumah dan bla bla bla... Lepas tu terlelap. Mula la short dream. 

Lepas tu dapat text dari adik Ash minta tolong call his mum. hehe i thought siapa la yang call pepagi tadi so aku tak angkat la. hmm biasa la minta tolong tengok brochure dalam kereta Ash. Lepas tu aku tengok la DVD Istanbul Aku Datang.

Okay bukan pengaruh cerita ok. Tapi really build up my strength. Menyampah lelaki looser macam tu. Kalau tak suka cakap saje tak yah nak pasang dua. Tak nampak ke how does the girl sacrifice macam2 just to be with him?Moral of the story, people doesn't appreciate you until the day you were gone ;)

Hidup ni kejap je. Ada up side down. Tak perlu simpati tapi appreciation. Kalau rasa nak enjoy saja hidup ni, you should go and do something you don't have to give commitment. Baru rasa nak hidup ada family. Biase la aku ndup ada family yelah my life is complicated since I was 17 years old. Nak kasih sayang yang tak cukup. Boleh gitu? Haha. Ok la. sebelum aku merepek. Aku harap tahun ni aku dapat ubah diri aku untuk jadi yang lebih baik. Love. ZaRA.

escape, hiding, etc

hello...i'm back....again....kinda busy lately. there are so much pressure now days in my life. Yeah, can't aspect people to understand me. Less expectation, less getting frustrated. Yeah, I didn't know what to say. It seems pointless to speak up because it will lead to a fight which in the end I feel bad about it. 

Watching The Kardashian last weekend make me think and feel that family always come first. Kim have lost her father almost 8 years but she still feel it until now. This happen when she tried to find an outfit for his step  father to walk her to the Aisle. This totally remind me of my late father. I feel alone and have to be independent because I've have lost someone that take care of me since i was a child. Yeah, my expectation was always beyond that to find someone that can take care of me till my last breath.

I can't describe how to lost of a father. I was frustrated when people don't understand the situation. Sometimes I wanted to scream out loud to release my tense. Lil bit sad when you expecting someone who were very close to you to understand it. I really need someone to talk to besides than my sisters.

My best friend, Affni was my inspiration to become more tougher day by day. To my beloved fiance, Ash, i hope you can take care of me in the future and bright up my life. I've try to explain to you but I'm afraid you don't understand it. Someone who can stand by me, cherish me all of his life. Emmm maybe just my dream I guess.

Thanks for reading this. Salam.ZaRA.  

One Step Closer

Alhamdulillah, selesai sudah satu majlis. Syukur kerana semuanya berjalan dengan lancar. Terima kasih kepada semua family members dan kawan-kawan yang memberi pertolongan dan support yang tidak terhingga. Jasa anda semua sentiasa akan diingati. Ok, cerita detail skit ok. A week before the event, aku da start nak rasa Flu. Aduyai so setelah bertahan a day before the event, aku pergi la clinic. Haha on the day of event, memamg dah demam tapi tahan je la babe, plus dengan nervous lagi.

So other challange will come. Kuatkan kan la diriku Ya Allah..... Hehe Cik Affni, akan dijadikan pakar rujuk aka my wedding planner la nnt. Love u ;) ZaRA.

Lemas

hello. hari ni rasa nak berblogging setelah sekian lama putus mode. Alhamdulillah, terbuka la juga pintu hati Ash ;) Skarang ni memang aku on diet. Monitor semua yang aku makan since aku punya body weight da berada di tahap yang tak pernah aku sampai sepanjang hidup aku. Kalau da kahwin and get pregnant tu lain la kan. Da puasa sunat nih dapat la body weight aku turun sedikit. Air still kene minum banyak. Haha kenapalah tak jaga dari dulu kan.

Setiap hari teringatkan abah. rindu sangat dengan dia. redha je la. tipu la kalau aku cakap aku tak sedih. hmmm ok aku da sedikit kekeliruan. Nape eyh perempuan sanggup bersusah payah untuk lelaki yang dia sayang? Padahal lelak tu tak adalah nampak serious sangat ayat pendek aku macam suka ambil kesempatan.  Yelah susah senang memang la same-same tapi beragak jugak la kan. hmmmmm macam mane tu? figure it out la....

Sibuk jugak memikirkan trip bersama kawan2 aku ke Jakarta-Bandung. Trip ni sepatutnya bulan 1 itu hari disebabkan ada masalah teknikal, terpaksala postponed. Jadi jutawan melapau kejap la kat sana sebab dalam kepala otak, banyak betul barang nak beli. Kite tengok je la this November.

Beragak la kalau nak kutuk orang. Lu cuba tengok muke kat cermin. huh kalau lawa sangat da boleh masuk miss Malaysia la wei. Mungkin tak ada brain. hahahaahahaha saje-saje emo. Tu semua ciptaan tuhan, so kalau kau kutuk aku ke, kau kutuk tuhan la kan. ;) aku hanya mampu senyum aje.

Ok la aku sebenarnya mmg da xde idea sangat sejak peristiwa 18 July 2012. Insyallah kalau aku rajin aku update lagi ;)

Zara.