Tomorrow never come

Hohoho Its a hell month for me. I hate it so much. Aku tak berapa sihat la since last few weeks but work is still work. It remind me how I used to be in year 2010. Urghhhh. Ok jugak biar focus dengan kerja dan lupakan yang lain. Blogging jap nak release tension. Currently obsess dengan gifts. Cari ilham. ehmmmm malu nak cakap. Insyallah da nampak jalan yang lurus.

Apelah aku ni sayang sangat kat kerja ni nak bla tapi still stuck. nak jadi pegawai? hah takat gaji lebih beberapa ratus ngan beban kerja macam haram baik tak yah. aku bukan gila pangkat tapi lebih pentingkan income. kah kah kah? AMK?

Always ingatkan diri  ini, tak ada siapa yang kesiankan diri sendiri selain diri sendiri. Sounds cliche but what to do, u can't force people to follow your way with what u have plan. Yeah, aku mengaku agak sedikit disappointing bile ape aku nak or plan tak menjadi but hey, self-healing la jawabnyer. It's time to focus on myself. Bukan ape, da penat la nak fikir pasal orang lain dan akhirnya aku dapat frustration.

Sometimes rasa aku ni beriya sangat. Malu kat diri sendiri pun ada. Owh please tears, go away. Keep smiling all the way no matter what happen. Yeah, memang hidup ni tak pernah cukup tapi sentiasa kene belajar bersyukur dengan apa yang ada. Ok let the frustration and disappointment go away. zaRA.

Vow

Struggling. Take a break by drinking a glass of milk. It's been a tiring weekend but I've time to relax my self.Weird? Yes it is. I've been through the same routine plus with all the works.Bored huh? Just want to share something. I'm kind of person speak what I feel and meant it. Yeah, although it was some kind of simple word like i miss you, i love you. As i speak what i feel. I'm not kind of person that talk too much with strangers.

As I do appreciate those people that think that I'm worth it. I speak from my heart what do I feel and always imagine if the second I'm not exist or either loss of my memory. I doesn't want to feel regret not doing the things rather than do nothing. Yeah, some people think that this is silly but hey, this is the real me. Accepting people for who there were and not trying to change them by what you want them to be. I just want them to be happy. Although the next day, they will forget me. Ok that's all for tonite.love2u.ZaRA. 

Its a Memory

Time to flush away all the memory. I've break a rose glass that I've been keep for 10 years. It happen just now when I was looking for my notes during my studies. That was a different story when I've look to some of the notes. There was a photo and also a simple drawing in that. huh...

So I decide to throw away some of the old stuff that give me a flash back. It's time to totally move on if someone want to be with me. I'm looking for a sweet words but the willingness to live with me. I'm not being dramatic. while searching for the notes I didn't notice my hand was bleeding until I start to type. Lets wrap up all the memory and hope it will faded.

No matter how hard I try to be nice, it will always be the same. People will not appreciate it at last and what can I see that taking something for granted. It's not all but most of them.ZaRA,

Ring the Bell

Full schedule. It's a statement. Katanye.... walaupun jadual penuh tapi sempat selitkan masa untuk bersama walaupun penat. sayang punya pasal. The day before spend time ngan Ash then the next day pergi Penang ada kursus. Sampai-sampai terus pegi class then plus with meeting. Tinggal 1 hour je untuk siap pegi makan for dinner. After that, tengok movie beramai-ramai. Lepas abis tengok movie kat Gurney Plaza tuh, tersangkut la kat bawah parking lot sebab hujan yang sangat lebat. Dah la nak keluar from the building pun ikut parking. memang sengal la. Tido beberapa jam saje and then sambung balik class the next morning. Abis class shoot balik KL.

Bukan terus balik rumah but i've to attend my cousin solemnization in Shah Alam at 9 pm on that Friday. Layan je la walaupun da separuh pening da kepala otak. Macam-macam cerita but it's all about life aite

Then on saturday, it was her reception. Ok jadi pak pacak kejap kat main entrance while waiting for my sister to come. Ok la sampai petang. Malam pulak terasa nak pegi survey bag Marc Jacobs. So dengan perasaan yang membuak tuh dapat la pasang niat untuk membeli. Di sebabkan da ramai sangat makhuk pakai coach so aku nak tukar sikit la.

Ok today punya cerita, abis baju aku kene hujan sebab aku gi lepak ngan my mom. Alhamdulillah dapat birthday present in advance. Hahahaha dapat la gadget..jeng jeng jeng...apakah nya? Adalah uollsss.

So malam pulak dinner wif my father and sister. Adalah kemas my room sikit-sikit sambil membuang barang yang tak sepatutnya ada lagi sambil berblogging ni. Lepas ni sambung buat kerja. Nak sibuk kan diri agar tak ada la rasa sentap ke apa sebab kene selalu pesan kat diri ni, tak ada siapa yang peduli pun aku punya daily life so thanks to this blog. Ok. Next entry with the different story.ZaRA.

Short Notes

i on my way back. i had a great time. Thanks Ash. I do appreciate it. I feel sad. Selalunya aku ok je tapi kali ni rasa nk nangis.gile agaknya. Ya Allah, please show the way...aminnn

Berat hati tadi tinggalkan Ash tapi apa boleh buat, this is part of it. i have to be strong. Yes i m.positive positive.huhhhhhhh

Love you Ash no matter want happen, there r always a test.so lets trust remain there n communicate.ZaRA.

Kitab

Alhamdulillah. Finally i found the Al-Quran that i wanted to buy. But please, I'm wanted hardly to get this ;( Help!! Feel so anxious.Syukur.ZaRA.

Rainbow

I'm not Superstar

Pancaran lampu elektrik di tepi jalan mengiringi kenangan dan sedikit titisan air mata. Macam satu babak dalam drama. It's April. Penat. Letih. Tapi tetap positif untuk sedapkan hati. Masih merasakan diri kuat tetapi hakikatnya, I'm just an ordinary person. 

Ya Allah, kat berikanlah kekuatan dalam diri aku ini. Aku hanya seorang yang simple dan tak suka complicated. Yeah, setiap manusia berhak melakukan apa saja walaupun ada pertalian. Ada sesiapa mempunyai masalah bersama perempuan terutamanya lelaki? Silalah berhubung dengan saya kerana saya akan sentiasa ada jikalau diperlukan. Boleh jadi kaunselor lepas nih.

Biasalah ini semua buat saya busy. Penat. Seangkatan dengannya. Lepas ni fokus. Cari duit banyak-banyak. Biarlah apa orang nak kata duit banyak tak bahagia asal aku boleh beli apa yang aku nak. Dah lama aku tak merasa nak beli barang besar untuk diri aku sendiri. Kalau next minute aku da tak ada, ada siapa kisah?

It's going to be tough and i've to be super strong.ZaRA.