its monday n holiday ;)

i love to be at home. yup, rather than go out. semalam banjir. huhuhu aku da start balik lepak sorang-sorang pergi drive sana sini. best. relax. bila rasa benda nak ending, aku akan pergi kat starting point dia. tengok balik how does it start. it's hard to get to the end.

ok. i mark his word. that is me. jangan tabur janji & harapan kalau memang tak ada keinginan untuk melakukannya. enough la. happy tengok abah ulang alik to mosque. cute sangat. haha biarla nak kata ape pun aku tak kisah.

hari ni aku rada aku banyak main kinect. menari macam orang gile. haha ada harapan la jadi tiang lampu lagi nih. ok so best, dapat tengok both of my sista buat cakes for their love one birthday walaupun yang sorang tu suppost buat on september kan. haha. kalau aku yang bake, mmg jadi rocky road la cake aku.

Alhamdulillah, lega dapat dengar suara Ash tadi. Rasa bersalah pulak dia sakit sepanjang hari. mungkin aku serabutkan dia last nite. i'm sorry because i tak boleh tahan da. ok enough. eee cepat la save the date. hahaahahaha

ok la aku nak sambung layan gadgets aku. love. zara.

Ombak Rindu Zara

Tuhan tu adil. Ada hikmah sebenarnya. Tuhan seperti memakbulkan permintaan hati kecik aku ni. Aku tak berharap tetapi Alhamdulillah, dapat juga aku tahu ape kebenarannya.

Adakah salah jika kita interfier niat pasangan yang ingin berkahwin? Please someone answer me. Aku rasa serba salah dan takut kehilangan. Semua di dunia ini hanyalah pinjaman tuhan. Ingatan untuk diri aku.

Miss Afnie, saya rasa kite punye masalah sudah hampir sama. Aku juga ingin menyelesaikan komplikasi cinta yang aku hadapi dalam tahun ini juga. Better now then never.

Aku rasa sudah banyak masa aku berikan. Terpulang kepada individu tersebut untuk membuat keputusan. Aku juga mempunyai prinsip hidup.

Cerita ombak rindu sebenarnya adalah dedikasi aku untuknya. sedikit sebanyak ada message yang cuba  aku sampaikan. Bukan terpengaruh dengan filem tetapi sedikit sebanyak ada realiti personaliti aku di dalam watak yang di mainkan.

Terima kasih semua. Harap di harap tahun 2012 akan memberi sinar baru. Sekian ;)) zara.

He's Back

happy working people.urghh tulah cuti lame kan n then have to prepare report for meeting. something missing this morning.may be hearing someone voice early in the morning :) i just receive phone call from my friend.

its all about her ex which it remind of mine also which dont have the guts to say that he is seeing someone else before his leaving. yeah it hurts but its better u tell rather than lying. urghh da besar la fikir matang la skit. aku tal de la emotional when i talk to her but what i said just let it go la.

its karma babe. last nite also make me thing, i should appreciate more the people who appreciate my existant rather than they who dont even care about me. and more thing, i can bare to see others talking bad thing about my life time partner. yeah now i realise. worse come to worse, i just have to let him go even i love him so much. ok enough.

cant wait for tonite to pick him up at KLIA. gediks for a while. hope that he safely arrive. missed him a lot.

Santai

hari ni hari santai aku di rumah. paling best bergolek golek di atas katil. segala text, whatsapp or phone call aku biarkan kerana hari ni aku nak relax. banyak benda aku mimpi semalam. bila aku realise, itu semua yang aku fikirkan semalam before aku tido. Letih sangat memikir sampai bangun lambat hari ni. da la hujan plus guruh2 sampai petang memang tarik selimut la aku.

2 keping roti disapu butter n taburan gula. my first meal. nak keluar memang aku malas hari ni. Ada la jugak memikirkan Ash yang jauh di seberang sana. Hope he's fine. Aku nak siapkan baju nak pergi kerja for next week. Main Dance Central sampai lebam. Semalam, before tido aku main. Agaknya itu penyebab aku bangun lambat.

Teringat kat Affni yang berada di atas sana. I know that she's have something to talk to. same as me. i  hope  you will be strong girl. i love my family. Ape2 pun yang jadi, dia orang la tempat aku mengadu. banyak benda yang aku fikirkan. My future is the most. Ape lah nasib. Next month harap semuanya akan settle biarlah asalkan settle. Dah lama tak pergi vacation. Mula la berangan kan. Since aku da start kerja, tak de chances nak pergi travel yang jauh2. Hehe berangan nak pegi LAX ke tapi aku nak tour Europe dulu.

Cerita pasal football, aku kurang setuju dengan my friend punya opinion yang mengatakan perempuan nowdays baru minat tengok bola since our national team main makin bagus. ape2 jelah yang penting Wan Zack Haikal is my....ok la nanti sambung lagi. peace ;)

Happy New Year

Its new year. Alhamdulillah. i have a great time with all my loves one. I feel so lucky surrounding by them. on saturday I had wedding invitation from my classmates during my study in unversity. He's married already just can imagine that.hahaha Samel punca betul la kite orang lambat pegi wedding. After that, Ash bring me to watch the Breaking Dawn. Haha teringat la zaman aku tido dalam cinema la kan. the movie was so nice tapi yang tak best sebab dia part 1. hehe alasan xboleh terima la. After that we watch football matches untill 5 am. Thank you so much Ash.

On sunday morning, rasa macam miricle bile Ash bangun awal. we go to cut his hair at the saloon. then we heading to my best friend wedding at Dewan Merak Kayangan. Its my favourite hall actually. Teringat la zaman sekolah rendah bila Awin bukak cerita pasal panjat pokok and tangki air. memang gile. Sekejap je kat sana because i was a lil bit rushing to sent Ash to the airport. Then after that i staright away go home and have my rest.

Mula la bila rasa happy ada je benda yang tak kena nanti kan. i was happy. serious. but ada la minor yang boleh di kategorikan major kut. Terima fact je la aku nih. He's taken. Just live him and move on. Aku fikir2 sampai bile yer benda ni? Yeah i can accept if i have to share him with his mother or family members but not with other women. Just left me if u can choose. Someone have to be hurt.

Sudahlah geram je fikir2 balik. Ape2 pun just enjoy your trip. Nite.

Time is Ticking Away

Day in and day out you see me smile
Day in and day out i look fly
Day in and day out i make everyone laugh
Day in and day out i think about the past

You call me pretty
You call me fun
You call me lucky
You call me most of the things I'm not

Every single day I walk around with a mask
Every single day I fake and I break
Every single day takes effort through it to make

Its a typical behaviour of a broken soul
Its a typical way of us hiding what we hold
Its a typical way to take the pain of your mind
Its a day job and at night we cry

I wish i could talk, about all the things that happened to me
I wish i could release all the pressure within
I wish that talking would take it all away
I wish all the tears i cried would wash a percentage away
I wish that talking would wash a percentage away

I would not be writing to you
Talking calms it down like taking **** if you must
Crying don't do nothing but increase the pressure
And pain until you're weak and fall asleep

Sometimes I wonder, why I even live

Sometimes I wonder and don't know where to begin

Sometimes I wonder how did I get this far

I feel worthless, I feel so scared

Therefore with you this I must share

I'm good at hiding all this pain inside

I tried talking a bit about it but that's against my pride

I cry all the time with screaming pain, I wonder how long till i snap

My clock is ticking away

Edited by,

ZaRa 

behind the scene of secret recipe

hi, currently i m having my lunch at secret recipe in plaza mont kiara. hmm rase nak lunch sangat hari ni. so dengan selamba pukul 1.30 pm start my engine n go.

rase relax n chilled. haha ada dua org guys having lunch beside my table. having conversation about work while waiting for their meals. boring. xyah la nk ushar sangat aku lempang karang.

lantak korang la, aku enjoying my mac & cheese n also chocolate indulgence. saje gatal nk eat something sweet. bile duduk sorang ni mmg banyak benda dapat aku fikirkan. its all about be independent.

tak sedar diri ada kerja kat office jap lagi ni tp layan la slice of cake dulu. motive aku berblogging? saje je. releasekn perasaan serabut.

got to go.love.zara.